Daniel, do you own a car? If not you can take the bus, correct? Even within your particular moral compass, even if only 5% of jobs are morally acceptable to your conscience, then after a few hours searching unskilled labor jobs on Craigslist in your local area, you would agree you can find an appropriate job for you to apply for, to work at for a while as you send out resumes for teaching positions? Correct? That is if we are incorrect that you are really just being lazy and sponging off your parents indefinitely. We could name 101 different lowly jobs out there, that they train you on the job how to do, but would you also reject those as morally beneath you?
How about?
1. Painting houses.
2. Landscaping.
3. Installing gutters.
4. Roofing.
5. General construction.
6. Detailing cars.
7. Pouring concrete.
8. Janitor.
9. Tree trimming.
10. Borrow a car and be an Uber/Grubhub/Doordash contract driver. Etc etc etc
Most of these are just local self-employed small companies working crews, not large corporations. If you worked 60 hours a week, $15/hour, for 2 years straight doing honest lowly work, guess what? You'd have made $93,600. Work just 40 hours/week, that comes out to $62,400. That would pay off your loan IF you sincerely are telling us you think you should pursue religious life in 2 yrs. If you keep making the same excuses, we here at SD will see right through it.
If you don't own up, and stop these kind of threads, then I second Graham's motion.