They hold it against you because you have nothing to offer. There's no way they'll hire you for a teacher spot. This is an extremely crowded market and you have no experience and no teaching education.
1. Quit f'ing around with the teaching job. Make friends with some illegals and see if they can get you a job at a slaughter house shoveling gut piles. That is what your worth is currently to society. Actually since you aren't working, you are below that. Start making money.
2. You have two choices. You can work unskilled labor the rest of your life and at least pay your way, or you can get training in a job that pays decent money. IF you did some coding with your gaming major, I'd go the coding route. Get certified and get a job. This will take a year of dedicated effort AND you have to work at the same time.
3. No matter what, you need a job. You could work night shift at a convenience store or work as a night watchman. The watchman job is nice because you can study while you are sitting at the desk with nothing to do. Then work another 4 hours in the afternoon with computers. Take whatever they pay and work on Wordpress sites or work on networks. You need to be working 60 hours per week and building up some cash and a work history.
4. Establish a work history and spend time getting certified.
Not trying to be rude, but I think you're giving me too much credit. I am not an expert theologian or a mystic. I am just a lowly Joe, trying to navigate my way around an evil world, using a moral compass which only works some of the time. The only guiding principle I have to go with is this: "If company X appears to be evil, then avoid company X". And nearly all companies appear evil, hence my options are greatly limited.
Perhaps I could follow your advice if I were standing on less-shaky ground, but it is not so.
Yes, I am a competent programmer. But no, I won't pursue it, as just about every tech company out there is rotten and is under the influence of the devil. Show me a tech company who is authentically Catholic--who neither commands its employees to sin, nor values profits above its customers, nor contributes to the destruction of society--and I'll reconsider.
Teaching is a way of dodging the problem. Since the schools I'm looking to work for are genuinely Catholic (or at least try to be), there is less of an issue. A genuinely Catholic school is not going to command its employees to sin. A genuinely Catholic school is not going to put its employees to work towards the destruction of society and the damnation of souls. A genuinely Catholic school is under the influence of the Holy Spirit, not the evil spirit.
But really, it doesn't have to be teaching.
Any genuinely Catholic business will do. I may not be as enthusiastic about it, but I'd be willing to work if I can find work. Because yes, I am fully aware that I need the money. Problem is, I have no idea where to find such businesses. I don't know where even to look. I suspect that there just aren't many such companies out there. Most businesses are rotten and under the control of Satan, just like the tech companies. Granted, there are a few businesses that do seem at least somewhat acceptable (Angelus Press, for example, looks fairly decent (ignoring the question of the SSPX) but I've asked and they say they aren't hiring). But the overwhelming majority are not an option.
But as far as enthusiasm goes, don't interviewers try and pick up on that? So this mindset of "It's not my first choice, but I'll do it. I'm really only in it for the paycheck" counts against me. Teaching is different. I am genuinely interested in teaching, so I would think this would work to my advantage. Yes, I am inexperienced. But every teacher was new at one point, so I don't know what these schools expect. Am I to just magically conjure up some experience?
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Guess it's also worth mentioning that I am, at the moment, not particularly looking to make a living. I only want to make a large amount of quick cash, in order to pay off my debts within the next two years, in order to enter a religious community before they tell me I'm too old.
Now if I didn't have a religious vocation, (or if two years had gone by and my debts still had not been paid,) then I'd try working towards the attainment of a career. And for lack of better options--and because of genuine interest--the career I'd shoot for would be
teaching. To do that, my first step would be in finding some school who would let me teach
unpaid for a year or two, in order that I may get some real (as well as documented) teaching experience. This--I would think--would increase my chances of being hired.
Perhaps a different choice of career would be better, practically speaking, but my spiritual condition will need to improve first, because as of now I don't see how to avoid the sin.
