Thanks for the posts guys - and I'm really sorry for this post.
I was really tired when I got back from Church last night - I just woke up after a couple hours of sleep - before I posted these things, and it seems that a lot of deep and suppressed feelings, opinions, and inner spiritual problems I had very irrationally made themselves appear.
Mainly, lately especially lacking Faith, having bad habits of sins that I feel like I can't escape from, being trapped inside my own head, and often times feeling lonely.
So, I apologize for my outrageous post - looking back at it when I'm less tired, I don't know why I came to these absolute, definitive conclusions that Christianity must be false because an Apostle seems to quote the fact that he think that angels had sex.
I'm kind of like a walking guy from the "Notes from the Underground," and quite honestly - despite all the selfish things I've done, I ask for your prayers.
Back when I was still single I lived a 5 minute walk from the local FSSP parish in Littleton. I was in the end of a semester for school, barely eating, staying up crazy hours to study for finals/write papers, and I'd break up time between all that on forums, reading theology books, etc.
I got myself to a point where I was convinced I was the worst person in the world and walked up to the rectory and knocked on the door. Fr. Jackson answered and with tears in my eyes I asked if I could make a confession. He let me in and we proceeded. After a few minutes of me rambling, he asked, "When was the last time you had a good meal, slept, and did something for the fun of it?" I broke down in a complete mess and he said I didn't confess any sins and I need to go eat and have some fun for at least an hour, and then take a good nap.
There's an acronym I once learned: H.A.L.T.: Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired. If you are any, or some combination, of those four things, HALT. No big decisions. No angry screeds. No arguments with anyone. No beating yourself up. Etc. If hungry, get food. If angry, wait till you are calmed down. If lonely, rectify that however you need to do so. If tired, get some rest.
Grab a bite to eat, calm down and stop beating yourself up, go do something with someone that is carefree and fun, and grab a nap.