You've reached a conclusion in your life and are attempting to lead us to it. This is not a socratic investigation into what the gates of hell statement means, but rather an attack on the Church with the goal of leading us out of her.
Nah, I haven't. I constantly go through this phase of questioning whether or not Orthodoxy is true, because let's be honest - history isn't absolutely clear. Recently, I've noticed that a key aspect of the doctrine of the Immaculate Conception (not the teaching as a whole, but an element of it) is present in the writings even of St. Photios, St. Gregory Palamas, and Patriarch Scholasticus, the last Orthodox Patriarch of Constantinople, and said key aspect (the Virgin Mary was sanctified by the Holy Spirit from the first moment of her conception) is ignored by Orthodoxy today. My mind turns back to Roman Catholicism, and then I realize how morally and spiritually depraved the entire Roman Catholic Church has become (the so called "Church of Nice", the "New Advent" Church, the Church of His Holiness Pope Paul VI and Pope John Paul II, the Church of Blasphemy, Sacrilege, and Cold-Harded Pharisaicalism) and how contradictory the Popes are to the point that I cannot accept the "developments of doctrine" in my moral conscience. And then I'm back to Orthodoxy, but left unsatisfied. Before that, it was Canon 110 of the Council of Carthage, said Canon which
seems to contradict the Orthodox notion of "Ancestral Sin", but is confirmed by the 7th Ecumenical Council and the Quinisext Council - said councils which are viewed as inspired as the Scriptures themselves. They are infallible and Tradition itself.
I just struggle with the idea that Vatican II is the catalyst which made me reject Roman Catholicism. What if I lived in the 18th century?
How can anybody believe the prohibition of the death penalty is a "development of doctrine?" Especially in light of St. Josaphat Kuntsevich, St. Robert Bellarmine, St. Thomas More...
